you’ve been assigned this mountain

“You’ve been assigned this mountain to show others it can be moved.”

What does this quote mean to you? What is the first thought that pops up in your head? Does it inspire you or does it do the exact opposite?

I’ve had this quote on my phone for about three weeks now. I’ve been reading it over and over and trying to really get a grasp on how this really makes me feel. There were days were I felt super inspired by it and wanted to start climbing and show others that, “Yes! This mountain you face CAN BE MOVED!” and other days I felt like, “Why do I have to be the one to climb…again. Why can’t they climb for once!”

There’s no right or wrong feeling here, you know why? Because we’re human and God wants us to be real with him.

I can’t speak for you, but hope I can maybe shed a little light and perhaps you even take away a little bit of encouragement from this diary post.

I’ll catch some of you up. My dad suffered a stroke back in April and it completely rocked my world and my family. It was bad. He couldn’t talk, he couldn’t really write and to be very honest, I was very angry with God. I still have my moments (honesty).

I remember falling on my knees in my parent’s living room, crying uncontrollably and literally begging God to not let this happen. It was like I was trying to request this magical prayer where God would wave his magic prayer wand and turn back the hour and we all go about our day. But that’s not how it works…so I learned.

I was so angry because out of ALL the people in this world, why the one who lives and serves for the Lord with his whole being??? Literally, like, he’s BFF’s with Jesus and I’m sure if my dad knew had to text on his flip phone and T9 wasn’t so difficult, he’d do it and I’m pretty sure Jesus would text back! Seriously.

I couldn’t wrap my brain around the fact that my dad was having to start all over, train himself to talk, write and do life a new way. He had to climb this (unexpected) mountain. Why God?? *God rolls eyes at Tori

Let’s fast forward.

Thinking about everything my dad went through and still going through, he has never stopped climbing. He didn’t even think twice about it! He didn’t get lost in the comparison, the why, the doubt or fear of never making it to the top. I know he keeps climbing because he’s not at all consumed with his circumstance but faithful that God will meet him at the top. No questions asked.

Watching him has helped me see that mountains can’t only be moved but conquered in a might way. I’ve trained myself to stop asking the, “why’s” and even when I’m scared or fear creeps in, I put one foot in front of the other and climb. Even when at times it’s hard to speak life on myself, I do it until I feel it. Me being assigned “this” mountain isn’t for me but for someone out there who needs to see it can be done and that it can be moved.

I don’t know what mountain you have in front of you. I’m not sure if you’re feeling tired and rather just keep your feet on the ground. I have zero clue what you might be going through but know that when you ignore the why’s and start your climb, God will show up and when he does, man, I sure do love when He shows off.

April 3rd, 2017 / Dad’s handwriting 

April 27th / Dad’s handwriting 

Let’s climb.

 

Thank you for reading, much love.